I know it has been awhile since I have taken the time to write anything on the blog. Sorry, it's just that being a mother keeps me busy and emotionally tired most days. I have been trying to get up before my children so that I have time to pray, plan, and gear up for the day. However, Damon has decided to become an early riser, so we share my quiet moments together! I have been reading My Utmost for His Highest in the morning while Damon works on toilet training. I have been challenged to examine my heart motives and have realized that I am lacking in so many ways. One thought struck me as I was praying about how to be a better mother. Here I am trying to wake up early, prioritize quiet times, and develop more of the Spirit's fruit, all things that are good and right, but my motivation is primarily to be a godly mother and teach my babies about Christ. Daily I think of who they will be when they are grown, and I weigh heavily the mistakes I so often make in my busyness and impatience. All these things make sense, but today I was struck by the thought that, while my children are a major priority, they are not to be the primary motivation behind self-improvement, daily quiet times, or the pursuit of godly life. No, Christ should be the force that drives...indeed the pursuit of Christ should be simply to know Him and bring Him glory. Realizing that being a godly mother and raising healthy, godly children does bring the Father glory, still leads me to consider my motives and motivation. Yes, pursuing a godly home is right, but deeper still, remembering that Christ gave His very life so that a we could have a relationship with Him, I believe, is the higher call.
In transition, we still need your prayers that the courts will favor our case and allow us to be heard for our first hearing before the Christmas break. We believe that God knows what is best, so we are praying, in addition for favor with the courts, that we will have the grace to accept whatever the outcome is.
An update on the kids-they are growing like weeds and I am hoping to be home before it grows cold here again. Otherwise, we will have to send for longer pants! Sundi has just about out-grown all of her jeans and Damon is not far behind. We thought Sundi was going to be short like her mother, but at the rate she is growing, she will pass me by the time she is twelve! As far as Damon is concerned, well, I think he will pass me by the fourth grade-the kid is a beast! He is now "walking" around by holding onto objects and even leaves those to walk independently for a few steps as long as he knows Mommy is there to grab him when he falls. He will be walking for real my the end of the month I am sure.
It's late, and I need to get some sleep. Thanks for all of your prayers and emails. It means the world. Please don't stop writing-it really keeps me going!