"When God gets us alone through suffering, heartbreak, temptation, disappointment, a broken friendship, or a new friendship-when He gets us absolutely alone, and we are totally speechless, unable to ask even one question, then He begins to teach us.
As you journey with God, the only thing He intends to be clear is the way He deals with your soul. The sorrows and difficulties in the lives of others will be absolutely confusing...Jesus cannot teach us anything until we quiet all our intellectual questions and get alone with Him."
I find myself in that place today, highly disappointed, rather speechless, and not even sure which questions to ask. Just got off of the phone with our lawyer's office-we do not have an appointment with the courts tomorrow. In short, our documents were not pulled and we were not put on the schedule. I don't know why, but I do know that no matter how unsettled my spirit feels about this, or how disappointed I may be, what really matters right now is my response too the situation. I want to be angry, I want to cry, but more than that, I want respond in a way that undeniably brings credit and glory to Christ. Samuel said, "We believe we are all letters that will one day be read. I want to be a letter that others want to read over and over. A letter that brings people to Christ and glory to God." Well, I don't want my letter to be one of self-pity or anger. One might say at this point such feelings are justified, but I keep reminding myself that Jesus did not sit on a cross for me feeling sorry for himself or being angry at me for committing the sins that put him there. No, he surrendered to love. A thwarted court date does not even compare, does it?
In closing, keep praying. They say they are going to try for next Friday. While you pray for that date, please pray that all things are able to happen as God wills. Let's not try to force things that are not in His plan. Also, pray I stay focussed on the right attitude and keep a chin-up! I'm quite sure I cannot do that without your prayers.
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kim..I've been meditating on this verse a lot lately..Maybe it can help you..I'll be praying for your family and the court date.
1 Cor 4:17-18: "For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."
Kim- It was so great to hear your voice yesterday! I miss you! I've been praying and will continue praying...God is Good and everything will happen is His timing, as hard as it is to wait, it's usually worth it.
The girls wanted me to send you love and tell you hi! They miss you lots!
Kim,
Stacey just sent me your blog and I want to thank you for writing from your heart. I can't tell you how much your words mean to my heart. I am learning a lot and I am pretty sure I am not the only one.
While this time may be very challenging, I feel that your life is having an impact on mine. So, I am pretty sure I am not the only one.
You and your family will be in me and Tim's prayers.
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